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First I will point out that I began to write my thoughts about my daily meditation here:


typos and all...that is the beginning work I began to do on the meditation from Paul Foster Case known as the Pattern on the Trestleboard.

This meditation has been a very powerful influence in my life. I used to have migraines up to 3-5 times a week, now it's down to more like once or twice a month. I used to have nightmares that would be so disturbing I would go completely rigid during them and wake feeling the strain on my body that caused. Now I can laugh at the occasional bad dream and see if it has meaning for me. This meditation I do daily. It is the core of my spiritual practice.

The real magic, I feel is in the accompanying visualization. For those not in BOTA or familiar with the Pattern, the 11 statements correspond to the microcosmic kabbalistic Tree of Life glyph. (statement 0 is above the glyph) The pattern follows the lightning bolt patterns down the tree, so that should explain some of my remarks about why those statements are connected to certain parts of the body. When visualizing the Tree of Life and its Sephiroth, each Sephirah has a whole set of associations and meanings which can, once the pattern itself is memorized be incorporated into the meditative process.

In Hermetic (GD style) Kabbalah, the pathways between the Sephiroth are represented by certain Tarot Keys. Having been a student of Tarot for most of my life, this enriches it for me greatly so that when I return to more traditional Kabbalistic texts, the stories come to life in rich and ecstasy inducing ways. Reading the words of Rabbi Akiva while contemplating the Pattern really just blows my mind.

At any rate...

So the usual meditation is to recite the statements while visualizing the Sephiroth on the Tree overlapping the corresponding positions on the body and kind of lighting up as your attention moves along the lightning bolt.

In the original lesson material, Case recommended in the morning a normal 0-10 recitation but in the evening a reversed version. Later this recommendation was removed. I thought about it and I figured that while the Serpentine path up the Tree can be used, it often leads to serious mental and emotional instability, so I decided to try a kind of upward Middle Pillar version of the Pattern. Starting at the feet I moved up the four center Sephiroth with the corresponding statements as I did so.

Normally it goes:

This Is Truth About The Self

0. All the Power that ever was or will be is here now.-above the head

1. I am a center of expression for the Primal Will-to-Good which eternally creates and sustains the Universe.-the top of the head

2. Through me its unfailing Wisdom takes form in thought and word.-left side of the head

3. Filled with Understanding of its perfect law, I am guided, moment by moment, along the path of liberation.-right side of the head

4. From the exhaustless riches of its Limitless Substance, I draw all things needful, both spiritual and material.-left shoulder

5. I recognize the manifestation of the Undeviating Justice in all the circumstances of my life.-right shoulder

6. In all things, great and small, I see the Beauty of the Divine Expression.-heart

7. Living from that Will, supported by its unfailing Wisdom and Understanding, mine is the Victorious Life.-left hip

8. I look forward with confidence to the perfect realization of the Eternal Splendor of the Limitless Light.-right hip

9. In thought and word and deed, I rest my life, from day to day, upon the sure Foundation of Eternal Being.-the groin

10. The Kingdom of Spirit is embodied in my flesh.-the feet

So, for my upwards night meditation, I began with statement 10, then 9, 6 and then 1. I found this to be a powerful way to bring my awareness back to the Divine origin of life as I send myself off to sleep.

One night, however, as I contemplated the wording of these statements as well as the Middle Pillar on the tree and within my body, the statements themselves each blossomed out into a kind of flower of statements.

For instance, at the feet, "The Kingdom of Spirit is embodied in my flesh", I had already contemnplated that as Malkuth is associated with the four elements that within this Kingdom of Spirit was all the "lower" Kingdoms of life and that the true meaning of having lordship over the earth is to have control over the kingdoms within oneself.


The Kingdom of Fire is embodied in my flesh

The Kingdom of Water is embodied in my flesh

The Kingdom of Air is embodied in my flesh

The Kingdom of Earth is embodied in my flesh

The Kingdom of Spirit is embodied in my flesh

This creates a pentacle of light around the feet, grounding the body in the elements. In contemplating the 9th statement and its position, perhaps being a woman it seemed natural to me to emphasize the element within the statement dealing with cycles of time.

So, it goes from "day to day" to "hour to hour" to "minute to minute" to "now" and finally "within eternity"

For statement 4 at the heart, it blossomed out into the 5 senses:

...I see the beauty...

...I hear the beauty...

...I smell the beauty...

...I taste the beauty...

...I feel the beauty...

...I know the beauty...

(Because the heart is connected to a hexagram instead of a pentagram I felt 6 statements best embodied Tiferet's influence)

Finally, the crown. For those familiar with traditional kabbalah, it is understood that each Keter is a Malkuth for another Tree, and I was reading last night in a text on Hinduism that talked about a conversation between Shiva and Parvatri where Shiva tells her that knowledge can only be attained by one who has God's feet resting within his head. I found that to be very nicely connected to this meditation, so while the crown has the statement that hints at the macrocosmic reality, within that crown is the feet of the macrocosmic Tree and it's own middle pillar, so if I eventually get this whole meditation ironed out, I will eventually have an overlap between the crown states said for "I am" and simultaneously the feet statements for the "I AM", but for now:

I am a center of expression for the primal Will to good which eternally creates and sustains my body

...my relationships

...my community

...my world

...the Universe.

At some point I will elaborate on why each of those statements has its counterpart in the feet statements and how it connects to the four worlds of creation and of course the Tree within each Sephirah, making the crown more of a 10 to the power of ten kind of flower, essentially a thousand petaled lotus, but that I may well save for the book I will eventually write dealing with this material. For now, this is enough of a teaser for those who have eyes to see to work with if they feel a resonance with the material.

blessed be,




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